nothing is real

The more I think about things, the more I realize I like the way John Lennon thinks. It was quite the rude awakening when I saw the preview for The US vs. John Lennon and I realized that I think I'd go with John on this one.

It's interesting - the moment I walked into the music store that day I decided to play guitar, and the song I wanted to learn how to play first - at my first lesson - got me hooked on the Beatles. Sometimes I wonder if I'm crazy - they are but men - but the words...

So today was another Beatles day. I have them occasionally, when I need a good day or when I need to recapture that feeling of the day I was playing "Across the Universe" in perfect synchronization with my guitar teacher and I believed it when I sang "nothin's gonna change my world," even though I knew it was wrong, I believed it.

And I have since then - when my mom had cancer, when I graduated from high school and then from college... through all the emotional trauma that happens in adolescence, somewhere deep in my mind was something untouchable: a sanctuary I could go to. I just forgot the way sometimes.

nano -2

This can't be good. I'm already sitting here looking at the blank screen with nothing to write.

This year I promise to try to have a plot - that makes sense. Maybe I won't have totally insane characters... maybe.

I promise to write 50,000 words of marginally better quality than last year.

See you in 2 days...